venus-x-vir.us: I miss the 90's hardcore.

helloshay:

The Rugrats, tie-dye shirts, smiley face stickers, glow-in-the-dark everything, lava lamps, peace signs, flower power, No Doubt, Hansens, Fresh Prince of Bel-Air, Titanic, UFOs, Lunchables, Sailor Moon, Dragonball Z, ReBoot, Kenan & Kel, All That, The Animaniacs, Freakazoid, Pinky and the Brain,…

Scream

(Warning: please prepare to be disturbed-thank you).

As lovely as mother nature is, her not-so-nice and uninvited visits can sometimes just be plain painful. Literally. Every remedy I could think of, from sweets to drugs, I desperately consumed them.  By 11, I was just so exhausted from the entire day, sleep was the only thing that could cure me.  Right before almost falling asleep, I put my hands together and I prayed to God. “Dear God, I am so thankful…”

My eldest sister received a phone call earlier in the evening about an audition she had been dreaming about since God-knows-when that she finally got. Exploding with surprise, happiness and more happiness, this means that she’ll go back to LA by this Thursday.  I started to reflect upon her time here in New York and how proximity made it so much easier to grow close to each other again. “Dear God, I am so thankful…”

Suddenly, I started to tear.  Not too long after, I started to sob.   Simultaneously laughing and crying, I then started to scream.   RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH……. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH…….. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH………. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH AGAIN. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SOME MORE.  My poor bed and pillow taking all the abuse. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 1236R8GE14FQJDB8q3BI@&**!U@U#RIBWQIRB#!(#. AH!!!!!!, LIKE I HAVE NEVER ‘AH-ed’ BEFORE, AH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so happy but sad at the same time because my sister has been so good to me and I don’t want her to leave.   Even though she’s not leaving for good, my emotions were completely over the roof by now that I had absolutely no control over them.  I don’t think I have ever been this hysterical in my whole entire life…not even as a child.  Throughout the years, I have actually grown to hate crying because it made me feel weak.  Whenever I did tear here and there, I would just brush it away like it was nothing.  It was either that or quickly change the mood and think about something else.  I guess I can’t be strong all the time.  It was a good thing this happened though especially because of all the recent bad news with my family.  What a relief.

I really do hope that everything plays out well with my sister’s audition and that she will be able to perform at her dream theatre in LA.  I have always been a supporter for her dancing career and I will continue to be one with the years to come.

Each day has been full of surprises and Matthew 6 came into mind…”Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”  With the recent situations that have stumbled my way, God has really been pushing me and pushing me to my limit.  And from this, I can only be thankful because I know that He’s working in me. Dear God, I am so thankful…  that You are with me and I with You.

Is it worse for a girl to have PMS pains or for a guy to be kicked in the privates?  I guess I’ll never know.

Le meilleur ami

Here’s the plan: scratch the plan

Being the perfectionist I am, having a plan always makes me feel more secure. Sure I like to be spontaneous from time to time, but not when it comes to my responsibilities in whatever I consider “important.” I had a definite plan for 2012 and I can safely say that not one of them has followed through.  Not because I didn’t do the things I was supposed to, but simply because of “life.”  I’m not sure what I’m to learn from this at the moment, but God has definitely been pulling me out of my comfort zone this year.  It seems as if I’m to have nothing regarding earthly things so that I can gain everything with God..how am I to respond with that?! Well for once in my life…there is no plan. Only prayer.

WHY GOD? WHY?

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”
{James 1:2-4}

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